It's been a long time since I observed myself.

Today, I will record my recent changes.

• It seems that my excessive self-esteem has gradually diminished.

I have been at odds with my parents for seven or eight years. Previously, I would ignore any messages they sent me about waking up early. Now, as long as I can get up in the morning, I reply to their messages to put their minds at ease.

Sometimes, when relatives or others offend me or make awkward jokes, I can understand their intentions and assume they mean well.

• Unconsciously, I let my guard down with certain people, and unconsciously, I am unwilling to be guarded.

Some old friends from school recently contacted me, and to my surprise, I found myself thinking more before and after speaking, as if I needed to consider my words multiple times in a few moments.

Upon reflection, my subconscious is telling me that they are not the same people they used to be. They must have undergone changes in these years, and I should be cautious about people's transformations. I shouldn't treat them the same way as before.

But then I get angry, angry at myself. So what if they have changed? Shouldn't I still let my guard down with them? What difference does it make if I continue to treat them sincerely as I did before?

A deeper reason might be that I have undergone significant changes in these years, and due to my writing, I have delved into the psychology of certain characters and have a thorough understanding of the dark side of human nature. Therefore, I am sometimes more cautious.

This incident has served as a wake-up call for me. The next step after maturity is decay. Therefore, sometimes using considerate language is a basic requirement for an adult. However, with your friends, you should only be sincere. This is not only good for others but also a way to stay young.

Twenty years later, please come back and read this piece.