September 1st is a good day
My new blog is online and I want to write a bit of history for it.
The term "writing history" always has a somewhat bloody connotation. It requires decisive action, sacrificing details, and undergoing a profound transformation in order to reshape the correct memory. It's like a light on a stage, meant to illuminate something, but also to hide something.
That's just the way things are in the world. When I thought I needed to shed light on something, there were even more hidden things lurking in the darkness.
\ So let this light gather on this day and stand at this moment, looking back at the past and forward to the future.
Since I want to write history, when I look back to the past, I always face this question: what is my relationship with the me from years ago? What is the relationship between my current blog and all of the blog systems from the past? Do they have an inheritance relationship or are they completely different?
I remember one summer many years ago, when I was 18 years old, a senior who was two grades ahead of me helped me create my first blog using WordPress. Standing at that point in time, WordPress, domain names, etc. gave me a sense of mystery, and the whole Internet world was like a black box to me.
This novelty lasted only a few months. That same autumn, I abandoned WordPress because I heard that Typecho was more promising.
I spent a week learning PHP and CSS for it, customizing skins and scripts.
In the deserted campus, I often wandered between the basement and the lazy sunshine, watching rows of characters suddenly turn into blocks of sky blue. These sky blue blocks really looked like the color of the sky. On a rare sunny day, I wanted to describe the sky I saw through a webpage.
In the following years, as a backup site for my blog, it wobbled on various servers.
During those years, I tinkered around a lot but didn't write much. I even integrated nmap into my blog.
Later on, when I couldn't tinker anymore, I switched to Hugo.
A simple HTML page makes me feel like I'm back to being eighteen years old. Indeed, the future's flowers bloom in the past.
And then, domain registration is required. And then, real-name authentication is required. And then, face recognition authentication is required.
Goodbye, Alibaba Cloud. Farewell, Hangzhou.
And then, this blog that is developed now.
The me of yesterday and the me of today are completely different. As a mature engineer, I will have a better sense of proportion in developing a system, avoiding being overly complex or overly simple, and consistently making progress to complete the tasks at hand.
But what about the blog of yesterday and the blog of today? Have I come full circle? Is WordPress still the most suitable CMS for me?
Only by imitating others can a human become a human.
Perhaps I can face the embarrassment and powerlessness of our lives with this quote from Adorno. At the same time, I realize that compared to meaning, vibrant life is the ultimate theme of everything.